Monster in Mama is Not Bigger than God Revised Edition

The book you are about to read is a revised version of Monster in Mama is Not Bigger than God based on my painful experience with my mother, sibling, relatives, some members of churches and communities I lived in. Even though I suffered in some churches and under some preachers who call themselves servants of God I continue to serve God and have fellowship with brethren in a church. This book is one of those difficult ones for me to write. I delayed for a while when God instructed me to write about my own personal abuse. To tell the truth I did not think, great book to write Father, I will start right away. God showed me my rejection by my mother since she knew she was pregnant with me. She never accepted me until now when I'm writing this book. I don't write the book to make her appear like some monster but I firmly believe she has some monster inside of her to carry such hatred towards me. God gave me the title "Monster in Mama is not Bigger than God" so that I understand that my "battle is not against flesh and blood but against principalities, powers and rulers of darkness". I battled to understand why such deep hatred from the woman who gave birth to me. I mean she looked me in the face and said "Doreen, you will never force me to love you!" My mother would say "when I gave birth to you if I knew you will rebel against me I should have sat on you and suffocate you to death. I told the Congolese in-laws of yours to kill you take the body and give me your head. You are good for nothing, a witch, a Satanist, evil, cruel, stupid, a problem to me. It is good that you lost everything including your job. It serves you right that Mampani (husband) is poverty stricken. He cannot even afford to buy himself underwear. I brought you down from being a success to live like an illiterate person. You thought you knew everything and you are clever". When I asked my mother who my real father is she would swear me with words that even those who write dictionaries would not take time to write. She did this while drunk and sober therefore she knew what she was doing. I went on fasting for over 30 days fasted and prayed asking God to reveal who my real father was. The man who rejected me for 44 years was my real father. I was told he was charmed by his late mother not to take care of his own children. He asked for me during his last days but I refused to speak to him or visit him. He caused me deep pain for four decades. I forgave him, went to his funeral and even helped with cooking and cleaning for the whole night preparing food for the mourners. Well hard as it is, I'm still praying for my mother's Salvation. I realized that when all those evil spirits that are making her the monster are out, she will realize the mistake she did. I didn't just embark on the battle but with God, LORD Jesus Christ, Holy Spirit, brethren, Christian counseling and strangers that God sent to encourage me. For example one day I met one woman for the first time, she said "mama, even if someone make you angry. It does not matter how much he or she swears you and belittle you. Don't ever raise your hand to smack or push that person. There are too many sick people these days. Unfortunately some look healthy but are dying. Just walk away or else you will smack or push such a person and he or she falls down and die. When you go to court the judge will say that you have killed someone. So don't lose faith". I did not discuss my challenge with that woman neither did she read any of my books. I found out when we were talking that God was using her.

About the Author :
Doreen Clementine Mampani is a Christian author from South Africa. She is married to Katalay Mampani and God blessed them with a daughter L'amour Mampani. She writes non-fiction books and poetry. She went through rejection and racism at home, in some churches and communities, unemployment, poverty, loss of material possession, sickness and disease and miscarriages. She suffered racism in her home and communities. Born to a Colored woman whose mother was White. She was rejected by some Venda and Coloreds. By God's grace she wrote and writes her books. She endured beatings by teachers, bullies at school and was beaten at home as well. God used her Sunday school teacher and some of the school teachers to mold her life. She persevered in her computer skills and learned Microsoft Office to a level that she trained colleagues in various companies that she worked for. She also taught herself company in-house computer software in order to complete her duties. Doreen did basic computer programming and dropped out due to financial constraints. She also attended classes on computer technical skills. She does not regard herself as someone who has apprehended but being molded by her Creator. Her writing career started when she lost her job, her husband's business was not doing well, and they did not have any source of income to the level of losing their material possessions. She typed her book entitled "Great Departure of Mortals" using an old phone and edited using a computer at the internet café. Non-fiction Who Owns Your Soul? Sin Tantalizers The Reigning of the Refugee The Citizens Bow to the Refugees Log of Poverty in the Eye Awakening of the Impoverished Prince Deceiving Voice of Poverty Trapped in the Underworld Dinning With Deception in the Shrine Deadly Diabolical Games Dethroning Poverty from the Golden Throne Uprooting the Bitter Roots of Abuse Monster in Mama is Not Bigger Than God Venom of a Bitter Woman Who Owns Your Soul? Revised Edition Monster in Mama is Not Bigger than God Revised Edition Poetry The Storeroom Gives Birth to a Story Tribulation Escorting Triumph Author Without a Pen 44 Liters of Tears The Plague in the Fatherless Home Great Departure of Mortals Little Oil in My Lamp The Song, the Dance, the Table and the Dinning of Souls Riding on the Back of a Poor Man Silencing the Laughter of Goliath Shacks Paving Way for Mansions Not Yet Time No Need to Die Early Drops of Tears in the Desert 44 Years and 4 Months