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Now That I'm Still Here: A Memoir of Ruin and Resurrection

Now That I'm Still Here: A Memoir of Ruin and Resurrection


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The first breath after the fall doesn't feel like a miracle. It feels like theft. Survival isn't noble-it's jagged, brutal, and haunted by every ghost you tried to bury. In this searing memoir, Christopher Carazas takes us inside the silence after collapse: years of abuse, the weaponization of his autism, and the knife-edge moments where he nearly gave up for good. What follows isn't tidy redemption-it's the unglamorous grind of clawing back breath, love, and identity. Told with haunting honesty and lyrical force, Now That I'm Still Here is more than a survival story. It's a lifeline. A reminder that even when the dark whispers you're too much, your breath is still enough.

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"It wrecked me. Then it rebuilt me." - Daniel R."As someone who's also crawled out of the wreckage, I saw myself in every shadow and every shard. Thank you for writing what so many of us couldn't say." - Monique S."This memoir functions as both a deeply personal narrative and a cultural artifact, offering nuanced insights into trauma, neurodivergence, and resilience. The lyrical structure mirrors the fragmentation of memory itself." - Dr. James R."Carazas doesn't flinch from the dark-but he refuses to let it have the last word. A stunning debut that belongs on every memoir shelf." - Dr. Alisha B."If ink could bleed, it would spell this memoir." - Melissa Chang"From an aspiring writer, this is the kind of writing that makes you want to quit... or get better. No in-between." - Alana T. "Shadow is the unsung hero of this story, and I'd read an entire book just about her. But the rest? Beautiful, brutal, unforgettable." - Brian K."Carazas navigates the wreckage of abuse, loss, and identity with the precision of a poet and the tenacity of someone who's refused to be erased. This is memoir as resistance." - Rachel Mendez"Now That I'm Still Here: The only book that made me cry, cheer, and Google 'how to adopt a German Shepherd' in the same sitting." - Chris D."As a book blogger, it's rare to find a book that feels like both an elegy and a love letter. This is one." - Amira H.


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Product Details
  • ISBN-13: 9798218761189
  • Publisher: Sentinel House Press
  • Publisher Imprint: Sentinel House Press
  • Height: 216 mm
  • No of Pages: 206
  • Returnable: Y
  • Returnable: Y
  • Sub Title: A Memoir of Ruin and Resurrection
  • Width: 140 mm
  • ISBN-10: 8218761187
  • Publisher Date: 01 Sep 2025
  • Binding: Paperback
  • Language: English
  • Returnable: Y
  • Returnable: Y
  • Spine Width: 12 mm
  • Weight: 295 gr


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