Invisible Tears: The Abuse, The Rebellion, The Survival Despite All Odds

At a time when six-year-old Abbie needs love and security, her mother goes to the hospital and never returns. Still distraught, Abbie is passed to whoever will have her. Her new step mother subjects her to unimaginable physical, sexual and psychological torture and delivers her to local paedophiles in the entertainment business. During her single minded pursuit of fame Abbie's step mother stops at nothing, beating and prostituting her own children. This is the story of Abbie's struggle to survive, the grim details of child abuse of the worst kind all told from the perspective of a little girl. As a teenager Abbie is uncontrollable. A Modette during the 80's revival, she finds a love of scooters, rebellion and gang life on the wild side. Dulling her pain with alcohol, drugs and promiscuity at a very young age, Abbie loses control and becomes well known to the local police. Not one person can get through to her because she has no fear, no self respect, no morals or self worth. With nothing to lose, she throws herself into one battle after another, blood and guts brawling between the skin heads and the mods on the streets of London. Her family eventually disowns her realizing they are unable to help. Abbie finds herself in the care of the Court until she is abandoned by children's homes and Social Services too. Alone, penniless and pregnant at the age of 16. Haunted by the secrets of her unspeakable past. Will anyone ever see her invisible tears?

About the Author :
Abigail Lawrence is 44 years old. She lives on her farm with her husband and the beautiful young horses which are her passion. She is married and has been with her husband since they were 16yrs old. They went to school together and now have 2 daughters, aged 27 and 23, and a new grandchild. Abigail did not do very well at school because she was far too busy rebelling, due to the years of child abuse she endured. Instead she preferred to create havoc wherever she went. As an adult, however, she has worked in many different fields, including jobs with horses and also with adults with learning disabilities, where she became very interested in behavior modification and completed a City and Guilds diploma in Advanced Management in Care. She enjoyed these types of work roles because helping other people is something that Abigail does best. Abigail has always had a passion for writing; she loved the way she could escape through poetry, and has written it for family and friends since she was a child. She had an abusive childhood that she somehow survived. She then rebelled and lived a gang lifestyle in south London. She decided to write the story of her young life in the hope that it would help someone else to want to survive and make a difference, and to not be a victim all their lives. Abigail and her husband foster children in care. Always a busy house with a lot of raw emotions to deal with, theirs is also an extremely successful one, in helping kids to make positive changes in their lives. Abigail is funny, honest, kind and caring, she works extremely hard, wears her heart on her sleeve; what you see is definitely what you get. Abigail Lawrence is a pseudonym