About the Book
A young woman’s search for connection with her estranged father, her family’s past, and the Palestinian homeland she can never visit
“Mai Serhan's writing is unique, sincere, dark, funny, and cuttingly tragic.”—Selma Dabbagh
Mai Serhan lives in Cairo and has never been to Palestine, the country from which her family was expelled in 1948. She is twenty-four years old when one morning she receives a phone call from her estranged father. His health is failing and he might not have long to live, so he asks her to join him in China where he runs a business empire about which Mai knows nothing. Mai agrees to go in the hopes that they will become close, but this strange new country is as unknowable to her as her father. There, the ghosts of the Nakba come to haunt them both. With this grief comes violence, and a tragic death brings a whole new meaning to the word erasure.
In a narrative made rich by its layers of fragmentation, as befitting the splintered and disordered existence of exile over generations, this courageous memoir spans Egypt, Lebanon, Dubai, China and, of course, Palestine. It is filled with bitter tragedy and loss and woven through with an understated humor and much grace.
About the Author :
Mai Serhan is a Palestinian writer who grew up in Egypt. She is the author of CAIRO: the undelivered letters, winner of the 2022 Center for Book Arts Poetry Chapbook Award, I Have Never Been to the Place Where I am From, But I Will Imagine It For Us, a finalist for the 2022 Narratively Memoir Prize, and the poetry collection, A Thousand Minarets & No Sidewalks (Diwan Publishing, 2025). She holds an MSt in creative writing from Oxford University, and has studied at NYU and AUC. She lives in Cairo.
Review :
“[A] definitive work in the genre of Palestinian memoirs that will not only attract readers of Said or Kanafani, but also fans of Joan Didion, Hisham Matar, Ocean Vuong, or James Baldwin." —The New Arab
“The book evokes the sensory joy of pre-Nakba Acre – food, landscape, community. . . . This is also very much a book about being a daughter, and about being a woman.”—The London Magazine
“Serhan’s memoir, crafted in magnificent prose. . . . is something which is truly cinematic in quality, whose delights and heartbreaks tumble out before the reader as naturally as images fall from a screen. . . . utterly vivid and compelling.” —Jhalak Review
"A courageous memoir of exile over generations"—The Bookseller
“Weaving together themes of sickness, statelessness, and intergenerational trauma with poignant, understated humor and grace, Serhan’s story moves through pre-1948 Palestine, modern day Cairo, and China at the brink of globalization. At each point, she navigates a world fraught with heartbreak, loss, and the innate human drive to hold onto our families, even long after they’ve fallen apart.”—Najla Said, author of Looking for Palestine: Growing Up Confused in an Arab-American Family
“Mai Serhan's writing is unique, sincere, dark, funny and cuttingly tragic. Her memoir will stay with me for a long time. There are facets of Palestinian-ness — if you can define it as such a thing — that are so clearly identifiable to me and yet so rare to see in literature.”—Selma Dabbagh,author of Out of It and editor of We Wrote in Symbols: Love and Lust by Arab Women Writers
“To accompany Mai Serhan across the times and spaces of injury and dispossession, to bear the pain of limbs and land lost, to weather the impossibility of return, to excavate the depths of all that we have and all that we have lost, is a salve on the open wound of what it means to be Palestinian. This brave and beautiful book is a gift and an invitation, to remember, to create, to persist, and most of all to love.”—Sherene Seikaly, author of Men of Capital: Scarcity and Economy In Mandate Palestine
“Utterly gripping from its opening, Serhan’s lyrical prose pulsates with love, rage and longing as it traces her complicated relationship with her father, across borders and far from their origin home in Palestine. Deeply moving and urgent, it reminds us just how much Palestinians have lost through displacement while speaking to extraordinary bonds to land and family.”—Julie Wheelwright, author of Sisters In Arms: Female Warriors from Antiquity to the New Millennium
"It is profoundly moving to read this intimate narrative, one thread in the vast tapestry of Palestine’s history. Told through the eyes of a second-generation Palestinian in the diaspora—those who inherit exile not through direct memory, but through its enduring aftermath. Though their Nakba may differ in form from that of their parents, its imprint is no less profound."—Maya Abu Al-Hayyat, author of You Can Be The Last Leaf
