A woman recounts coming of age in the shadow of her father's mental illness in this "candid, unsettling portrait of madness and enduring love" (Kirkus).
Deborah A. Lott grew upina Los Angeles suburb in the 1950s, under the sway of her outrageously eccentric father. A lay rabbi who enjoyed dressing up like Little Lord Fauntleroy, he taught her how to have fun. But he also taught her to fear germs, other children, and contamination from the world at large. Deborah was so deeply bonded to her father and his peculiar worldview that when he plunged from neurotic to full-blown psychotic, she nearly followed him.
Sanity is not always a choice, but for sixteen-year-old Deborah, lines had to be drawn between reality and her own "overactive imagination." She saved herself through an unconventional reading of Moby Dick, a deeply awkward sexual awakening, and entry into the world of political activism as a volunteer in Robert F. Kennedy's Presidential campaign.
After attending Kennedy's last stop at the Ambassador Hotel the night of his assassination, Deborah would come to a new reckoning with loss. Ultimately, she would find her own path, and her own way of turning grief into love.
About the Author :
Deborah A. Lott's memoirs, essays, and reportage have been published in the Rumpus, Salon, the Alaska Quarterly Review, Bellingham Review, Black Warrior Review, Cimarron Review, the Los Angeles Times, StoryQuarterly, the Good Men Project, the nervous breakdown, and many other places. Her family's legacy of hypochondria was featured on NPR's This American Life. Her first book, In Session: the Bond between Women and their Therapists, offered an unprecedented look at psychotherapy from the perspective of clients interviewed by the author. Her essays have been thrice named as "notables of the year" by Best American Essays. She teaches creative writing and literature at Antioch University, Los Angeles, where she serves as faculty advisor to Two Hawks Quarterly.com. She lives with her husband, Gary Edelstone, in Los Angeles.
Review :
Deborah A. Lott's Don't Go Crazy Without Me is funny, horrifying, and heartbreaking--and often surprisingly, all three at once. It's an astonishingly vivid book, and to read it is to be caught up, just as the writer was, in an impossible, crazy, misfit family. Through grace and nerve and will, Deborah learns that you can't "screw nature," or "stop time," as her father tried to do, "but you could turn your grief into love." This writer's love for her deeply screwed-up family is unforgettable. As the best memoirs do, Don't Go Crazy Without Me makes this writer's story belong to all of us.
--Mark Doty, National Book Award Winner, author of the memoirs Firebird, Dog Years, Heaven's Coast, and multiple volumes of poetry.
Don't Go Crazy Without Me is an extraordinary book. Deborah A. Lott writes about everything--parents, children, bodies, illness, sex, writing--with a voice that is utterly clear and beautiful and funny and original. This is a book written with honesty that will both break your heart and enlarge it.
--Karen E. Bender, National Book Award Finalist and author of A Town of Empty Rooms, Refund, and Like Normal People.
Hilarious, devastating, and compassionate: Deborah A. Lott's Don't Go Crazy Without Me is written with a ferocious intelligence; it pulverizes memoir as we knew it. This is glorious work by a writer working at the height of her power.
--Paul Lisicky, author of The Narrow Door and Lawnboy
Sentence by sentence, Deborah A. Lott is one of the finest writers I know. Her keen insights into the dynamics of her quirky, unforgettable family, and into family dynamics in general, make this book bound to be a classic.
--Hope Edelman, author of Motherless Daughters
Brilliantly written with grace, generosity, and a highly refined sense of the absurd, Don't Go Crazy Without Me is the harrowing account of a chaotic, bewildering childhood. This reader was enthralled from the get-go, and Deborah A. Lott is now one of my favorite writers--I kiss the hem of her garment.
--Abigail Thomas, author of Safekeeping, Three Dog Night, and What Comes Next and How to Like It
