How to Kill a Goat and Other Monsters: (Wisconsin Poetry Series)

One is never sure who the monsters are in these poems, only that the narrator desperately doesn’t want to be one. In his brilliant debut collection, HernÁndez explores grief, loss, identity, lineage, and belonging with grace, insight, and compassion.  These pages are infused with comfort, with desire, with heartache. Never absent is love, family. HernÁndez—hyperaware of American society’s dismissal or hatred of people who look like him—writes with a refreshing confidence, a sure knowledge of who he is and where he comes from. Transcending any particular experience, this volume will continue to resonate with multiple readings. he says I deserve someone who will love me the way  I love him. I want to kiss him, tell him love isn’t measured. I squeeze his hand instead, afraid of the thought of anyone looking at us  from the outside of my car. —Excerpt from “Defying the Dangers of Being”

Table of Contents:
In Another Life First Wave The Boy Who Lives in Dreams Notes on SueÑitos AmÁ Sees Fireflies Calamine 13 Reasons Why ApÁ Fears Water At Night My Body Waits Choo-Choo Defying the Dangers of Being Second Wave The Boy y El Hombre Que se ComiÓ El RelÁmpago Dear IvÁn That’s Not My Name When a Body Is Dragged Tessellation La DoppelgÄnger What Is a Cycle if Not a Circle For My Queer Ancestors Third Wave  The Boy & The Story of Water Meditation on Grief Notes on Dividing Fractions Pushing My Name Down Their Bodies MISSING TÍO How to Outline a Body: Fragments after Tatarabuela Ignacia’s Passing Water Runs Too Ars PoÉtica for a First G(ay)eneration Mexican American The Rio Grande Speaks Fourth Wave The Boy & The Sound of Himself This Is Why I Fall Fast The Girl & The Northern Lights The Loquat Trees & The Boy Next Door Airball How to Find the Distance between Two Points My Love Would Have Killed You Breath Is a Body at War Fifth Wave The Boy & The Lineage of Dreams When Dreams Come True Illusion of Light Strand of a Memory This Is How I Fight The Dance inside My Abuela Listening for Submergence How to Kill a Goat & Other Monsters Notes Acknowledgments

About the Author :
SaÚl HernÁndez is a queer writer from San Antonio, Texas, who was raised by undocumented parents and holds an MFA in creative writing from the University of Texas at El Paso. He’s the winner of a Pleiades Prufer Poetry Prize, judged by Joy Priest; and a Two Sylvias Press Chapbook Prize, chosen by Victoria Chang. His poems have been nominated for a Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net.

Review :
“The mouth, tongue, and hand feature prominently in HernÁndez’s collection. Indeed, these compelling poems kiss and bite, tell startling secrets and whisper with affection. They sometimes caress and sometimes strike. What he so eloquently calls ‘the language of grief’ pulses at the body’s intersection of language and desire, ethnicity and sexuality, vulnerable youth and empowered adulthood. What a stunning debut.”—Rigoberto GonzÁlez “In this frank collection, SaÚl HernÁndez documents grief alongside trauma, queer desire, and familial love; ‘sometimes to survive you have to transform,’ HernÁndez writes, and here we witness how one survives sexual abuse, the loss of beloveds, and various deaths within a family. Mathematics serves as a kind of water logic, a dream logic through which HernÁndez makes sense of his history: ‘a fraction to me means leaving traces of my culture behind, or how embarrassing it is to say—My parents are from Mexico, as in my parents are undocumented, as if to say they came here to give me a country that wants me dead.’ Juxtaposed with this math are explorations of the erotic border between violence and lust, vulnerability and tenderness. These poems course like lightning across the sky, illuminating both water and land below.”—Diana Khoi Nguyen “HernÁndez wields surrealism as a weapon against displacement and alienation, or as he himself might say, ‘I learned how to kiss a man easy / when he held a gun to my neck.’ Through stark juxtapositions such as this, HernÁndez manages to honor the fact of his ancestry while bravely confronting the possibility of having been abandoned by ancestors. This is a brilliant debut.”—Jericho Brown